It’s a weird kinda feeling sitting down to write a blog post for the first time in 3 months, in fact the first time this year. First of all, I hope if you are doing good, and uni / work / life is all well?
I’m not going to get too deep into the reasons why I’ve been awol from my blog for the past few months, I have missed it lots though and if you were a regular reader I have missed you too! When everyone was cheering ‘happy new year’, my 2017 appeared and immediately went downhill that I didn’t even wish anyone ‘happy 2017’. Things happened and for while certain aspects of my life spiralled out of my own control. Of course there are many worse situations going on out there, and I felt quite selfish for believing that the issues I had going on had ended my world, so to speak.
My world hadn’t ended though, just certain aspects of it, and actually they haven’t really ended. I felt like it for a while, but now I’ve adjusted my perspective. When any door in our live shuts or gets slammed in our faces, we become shadowed with fears, hurt, anger, anxiety; a range of emotions. It can lead us to sitting cross legged in front of that door refusing to move until someone opens it back up for us, but because we feel like our world has ended we don’t want to take ourselves away from that door in hope of someone of something opening it back up again. We can become entirely focused on waiting for that door to open up that we fail to notice the windows are open to new beginnings. It takes time to see them but they are always there, even when the doors are shut. And if you ever feel like your world has ended, or you’ve lost an opportunity somewhere along the line, or things just don’t seem to be going right – remember there are more windows than there are doors!
I’m hoping this post has made some kind of sense, and I really hope it helps if you feel a bit rubbish lately. Oh, and happy new year!