This week I got my final results for my whole degree. I was relieved to find out I will be receiving a 2:1 BA Hons in Business Enterprise.
This time last year I would have been extremely disappointed with that grade. However, this year has been the hardest of my life so far.
I know people will have suffered with far worse than I have and still come out with a first class degree… But for me personally I think I achieved the best I could under the circumstances. Some people may also find it TMI that I’m about to list some of the things that made this academic year difficult. It is kind of therapeutic to write about the things I’ve overcome and I feel like it will give people suffering in the same ways hope for their futures. So here we go. I dealt with my first proper heartbreak after a three year relationship, illness of family members, loss of friends, close friends dealing with serious mental health issues, verbal attacks on my personality, doubt of myself and my worth, weight loss, weight gain, serious health issues that lead to me being unable to attend uni, anxiety, family issues, money issues, moved into my own apartment and got stalked so had to move back out, having to talk to therapists about trauma I suffered (still dealing with this). And that’s what I can think of off the top of my head. Some of these things are still issues I’m trying to deal with, however, it’s life. Everyone has problems and hard times. The thing that stopped me from quitting university was thinking that there is someone out there suffering far worse than me and still working their ass off. I decided not to give up and to try and be as strong as those other people.
I am not the girl I was this time last year anymore. Everything has changed. But after all these hard situations I have found great positives. I have made loads of great new friends, learnt that I can do something if I want it bad enough, reconnected with family and put all my past behind me. I’ve learned to value myself and how to be happy alone, which were things I never thought I would do.
I am learning and the road to becoming a real adult is rocky but I’m getting there. I aim to use my degree to help me keep growing, learning and becoming a better person.
Everything is always okay in the end and if things aren’t okay, it’s not the end.